As I start my journey to take better care of myself there are certain aspects that I need to focus on, theses are Mind, Body & Soul.
For a while now I have struggled with who I am as a person, an individual, a partner and at the moment if I’m doing any good at being a dad or a role model.
The problem with not knowing who you really are and having so many different personality’s is know which one is actually real is any of them real and what if the one who is real turns out to be the asshole???
So I think time is the key, I’m not one for meditation I’m trying to avoid my thoughts not concentrate on them all!
Learning to embrace it and just go with the flow is the only conclusion I can think of, just learning to live with the fact that this a part of who I am and if I end up alone at least I will have a few people to talk to.
A healthy mind must come from positive thinking and not all of this negative thinking, learning to smile, laugh and even talk to people more it can’t hurt to open up a little bit can it?
In the early years I was so healthy and so fit I did everything from running to MMA, I had a six-pack and had stamina for days on end.
Now days it’s a different story, my hot bod has been transformed into a dad bod which don’t get me wrong I have enjoyed getting, after putting the kids to bed the last thing on my mind was doing push ups, the only thing I was pushing was the checkout button on the local takeaway.
Now that I want to make a change and whats a healthy mind without a healthy body to go with it!
It will be hard work I know this but if it means I’m around longer to see my kids grow up and see my grandchildren instead of going into self destruct mode and only I can change this
This is the biggest thing I feel, I believe we all have a soul or else all these emotions and heartbreak we go through would be for nothing.
When I held my new born child for the first time, I felt love and not the kid of love you get from a pet or anything else but a love that rocks you to your core, a love with all your heart and soul.
I hurt a lot of people along the way and I believe I damaged my soul in the process, I’m not a bad person but I have done enough damage to know it hurts me and others.
So healing myself inside is key to helping me move forward and grow as a person, a person that I will like and am comfortable to be around.
One step at a time
Daddy Giraffe x