Living with BPD guest post with Terri

I have decided to do another guest post where people talk about there day to day life while living with a Mental Illness.
This week I have Terri who has kindly let me ask her some questions to find an incite of what it is like living with this illness while raising children and balancing life.
Enjoy the read….
1. Tell us about yourself 

Hey, I’m Terri. I am 26 years old and a mother to 3 awesome little guys. I like reading, drawing, singing and playing games (basically most things that mean I don’t have to actually go outside) I spend a good chunk of my days with the children and doing housework or hiding out in my bedroom.

2. When did you get diagnosed with Mental Health issues and what was you diagnosed with?

I was first diagnosed with Depression when I was 11 years old. After many years of trial and error we all later found out that it wasn’t actually Depression but I in fact had a Borderline Personality Disorder, to this day I still have to have regular tests and what not just so the doctors are 100% sure they’ve picked up on everything.

3. How does this effect your everyday living? 

Sometimes I can’t function like a normal adult should be able to, sometimes I can’t get out of bed, sometimes I can’t get dressed, sometimes I can’t leave the house, sometimes life feels that hard for me I struggle to even say a few words. Sometimes I have to lock myself away from the world and people because I am on a roller coaster of emotions and the thing that could have triggered me is literally something as small as a dirty tea spoon.

4. How do you keep yourself calm in stressful situations? 

Exercise, I kid you not, no matter where I am if I feel something is really stressing me out and I feel I might start panicking or having a random anxiety attack I will get up or stop whatever I am doing and start doing jumping jacks, or jogging on the spot… I have also been known to drop down at my parents house before and start doing crunches.. Crazy I know, but it’s something that I have found really has been helping… even if I do look like a complete weirdo in public.

5. Do you feel people’s opinions have changed towards you since you were diagnosed?

I think a lot of people don’t know how to treat me, so they treat me like I’m broken. Some people see me as something they need to fix, which really isn’t the case, you can’t fix me.. It’s just who I am.. Me as a person hasn’t changed but I think it does help some people understand why I am the way I am sometimes. I did initially fall out and lose a few friends because they didn’t know how to act around me, they didn’t know what they could say, couldn’t say.. And some people just flat out refused to accept that I had a problem and said that it was just an excuse for me to not be in full time work (which is something I do want eventually when I’ve got a hold on things)

6. Why did you start blogging?

I don’t get out a lot, I’ll be honest here, I don’t interact with people outside of my house as much as I should be, and I thought I’ll blog, I’ll give people an insider’s view on what it’s like living with something that can literally cripple me in seconds.. Hopefully so people can understand me a bit more, and not freak out if they think they’ve said something that offends me.. I kinda want to normalise my issues in the hopes that maybe someone else will look at me like I’m normal for a change.

7. What are your future goals?

I want to be a teacher. I want to get a hold of all my mental health issues, I want to be able to control myself in stressful situations and I want to go back to college and become an English teacher to maybe teach abroad some day… It’s a bit of a pipeline dream to be honest, because I don’t think I will ever 100% have a hold of my issues so that I’ll be able to function in that kind of setting, but it’s something I can try to aim towards personally.

8. Tell me something good about yourself?

Hmm, Bit of a hard question since I spend majority of my time bringing myself down… Sense of humour? I have a pretty dark sense of humour but I’ve been told I’m pretty funny as well.

Thank you once again Terri it was very brave for you to open up like this and I wish you all the best in the future.
If you want to read more about Terri you can see it on her own blogging page…
Daddy Giraffe x

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