What a year this has been already but I’m finally at a point I think where I’m coming to terms with how things are and how I will move on and make the changes needed.
If you follow me at all you will see that this year has been a rough one for not only me but my family as me and Cheryl decided to part ways, this to say wasn’t easy as I wanted other things and Cheryl was heartbroken.
But I’m a believer in time is a healer and through a lot of rough patches we both are starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel and are both coming to terms with what has happened.
The first thing that was done was moving out of the family home and back into the house with my parents.
Now this wouldn’t be so bad as its 5 minutes from where my kiddies are and I could help around the house here as my dad is adapting to losing his sight so I can do the odd jobs that need doing around the house.
I’m currently looking for a place of my own so I can have the kids a couple of nights a week and take the burden off Cheryl a bit giving her a bit of spare time.
Relationship with Cheryl
At first like most break ups there was a lot of arguing and days where we couldn’t be in the same room let alone the same house.
But despite how we didn’t see eye to eye we always put the kids first and that was the main goal to make it as normal as possible.
If you know Cheryl then you will know that she is an amazing person, kind, generous, very honest and a fantastic mother.
Always putting the needs of her children before her own happiness is something I admire always and I will forever be grateful she brought my children into this world.
We have both grown through this experience and have turned corners, we can actually sit and have adult conversations and even a laugh.
Seeing the children
I tried to make this as easy for the children as I possibly could and tried to get some normality back into lives which is easier said than done.
Educationally they are all thriving, winning awards and smashing everything in front of them which we couldn’t be prouder of.
Personally wise they are all happy, it was a change at first but I see them every day and always am in there lives, birthdays are coming thick and fast, we have just had Freddie’s and now we have Annabelle’s in a few days then Elizabeth Ann at the end of the month.
The kiddies have always been my number one priority and always will be, I cant wait to see how they all progress and grow in the years to come where they find they their own paths to take in life.
Whats the way forward from now?
Time to focus on me now I think, first thing is first im feeling a bit more confident now so I may try going back to work with the all clear.
Finding a new place is second, some space for myself and my children to relax would be nice.
Me time, just focusing on me, my health and getting better and in the right frame of mind to battle the world again, I watched Cheryl at her lowest point and she dragged herself up through everything and decide enough was enough and that she was worth more and she would make that change.
That is inspiration right there if not anything else!
Daddy Giraffe x