It’s been a while since I was diagnosed with Personality Disorder, this comes in different forms mine happens to be a mixture of both Bipolar and Schizophrenia which you can imagine balancing this is tricky.
So how do you balance multiple personality’s and how many can one person have?
Everyone has all kinds of emotions like anger, sadness, guilt, happiness and even just numbness.
But can you imagine having these all constantly changing through the day/night 24/7 when you wake up in a great mood and half way feel why am I even bothering.
Whats the main emotions that im having trouble balancing…
The only way I can describe this is like inside me is a caged animal that’s just constantly rattling the cage to get out and occasionally it will escape and trying to get it back inside is a task in its self, even on my calmest days I can still feel it deep inside pacing around just waiting for the next change to break free.
This comes in many forms from just waking up feeling a bit low to questioning my own being and would it make any difference if I was here or not.
The problem with sadness is that it spreads like wildfire and whoever is around you picks up on this and it automatically brings their mood down and before you know it there is this dark cloud throughout the house that you struggle to shift.
Not just happiness but over happiness, being silly to the point of annoying and hyper to the point of when I crash I could sleep for days.
The world is all butterflies and sunbeams, there is no negatives and tomorrow will always be a better day which I see can be quite annoying when it’s over the top.
Balancing these at a rapid pace it draining but there are methods to balance this out and im open to suggestions on how to make things a little easier.
Medication helps a little and family helps even more, I don’t know maybe I will take up yoga…
Daddy Giraffe x